All Over Again...

It is indeed funny how sometimes all we need is
a line from a song
a quote from a book
or a movie
to realize how we really feel....
And all we need is
a smile from a friendly stranger
a good cuppa of tea
a look out of the window into the drain drenched leaves
an old, almost forgotten song...
to briefly put us back together...
....before we fall apart all over again !!!

Waiting for that second chance....

Spend all your time waiting.....for that second chance, for a break that would make it okay....there's always some reason, to feel not good enough, its hard at the end of the day....

I need some distraction...oh beautiful release, memories seep from my vein...let me be empty and weightless and maybe i'll find some peace tonight ! In the arms of the angel, fly away from here....from this darkness and the endlessness that you fear....you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie....

You're in the arms of the angel....may you find some comfort here !!!

May you find some comfort !!!!

Grrrr..............

I hate to work on a Saturday, espcially when the rain washed greens calls out from your workspace window....................... in calvin's words caging a free spirit !!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrr............................................................

One of those days.......................

Today is one of those days. You begin the weeek, optimistic and looking forward to everything and then . . ......... things just fizzz out, rather quickly!!!!............ yesterday was one of those rushed mondays, when u don't know why u did what u did, jst that u did it..... and now its followed by a gloomy, dull tuesday...........with an uncertain, quiet yet emphatically uneasy evening slipped in between. Actually there's nothing wrong, atleast nothing that i can put my finger on.........something unseen, something queer.......yet strong and emphatic.....

i guess some of it has to do with the uncertain and testy mood of Mr. A, well its only fair that i allow him that much room, in order to settle down into a new groove. I somehow have been a bundle of emotions since yesterday..........very apprehensive, somewhat frustrated and a whole lot sad......there is this issue between us.......no bone of contention or argument or something for which either one of us could be at fault........just a problem that exists and burdens the soul in trying to figure out a possible solution.

uhhhh.....isn't that vague enough ???? well, on bad days its even difficult to express your feelings, lest you are mis interpreted.Just sitting tight and hoping to ride this over........soon........trust tomorrow will be another sunny day !!!!!

Its Saturday.............the last work day of the week for me, unlike most.........

The day was bright and usual as i got to work and plunged myself into the report i have to finish by the next week. Suddenly, its all dark outside, as if the Mr.Sun has decided to call it a day !!!

Its pouring outside and i just love the smell of the moist soil.......... its intoxicating to the extent that my mind ( with no permission from me ) has decided to take a walk. I sit here looking outside thru the large glass windows......... into the bowing trees and the occasional lightening. The sound of the raindrops lashing the glass panes, makes me feel eerie…………………..

And here I go, trip down the memory lane………………… it was one such overcast afternoon, I was sitting in my cubicle trying to make some sense of whatever work I was doing….. when i took a step that changed my life forever....... i had the courage to accept that i was lonely and needed my best friend to be with me forever...... one phone call was all that it took and yet i refused to believe that marriages are made in heaven. Four years have gone past, since that afternoon, yet at times just seems yesterday. i can almost rattle off every word spoken.......hmmmm...... see this is what the rain does to me......... albeit some otherday, someother thing, someone else...... life indeed is a scrapboard !!!!!

my first blog

Well, although i started this blog sometime back, never quite got to actually muse aloud..... so here i go with my first ever blog.

I am here to avoid infact, disown any semblance of ‘real work’ like churning the data for the various projects and my thesis.

I would love to have an audience for my random yet very emphatic thoughts……. The erratic movements in my brain ( I believe that I have one…) would love to find some common patterns in the vastness out there………………

So I have promised not to get swayed away by the lazy bug that bites me now and then with no prior warnings……….and keep the flow going. Infact I keep swearing to myself that I would not let the bug, get the better of me nor would I get sucked into the quicksand of workplace chaos.

Words....these everlasting words !!!!

When u move from light to darkness, from the known to the unknown
Always keep the faith.....
When you take the leap of faith, know deep down that
Either there'll be solid ground beneath your feat
Orelse you'll be taught how to fly !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Anonymous)